So i have fallen in love with one of the greatest men who walks this planet. He is kind, and sweet. And the greatest part is I have known him pretty much my whole life. So he already knows all my little quirks and he accepts them, even loves me for them.
The only bad part is right now he is stationed in Alaska. He comes home in June but only for 17 days, its kind of a bummer but I am trying to keep my thoughts happy like for instance at least I get to see him for those 17 days and we are going on a romantic beach trip just the two of us. Its gonna be great. And we are both hoping that he will get transfered back here so that way he can ask my parents for my hand in marriage and then we can plan the wedding.
This is the happiest I have been in a long time and I hope this feeling never ends

I met someone really great

So i was browsing myspace and i found a wiccan guy and He lives like 30 mins away. and he works in the same town that i do...
Maybe this was suppose to happen....please let this work

Falling in and out of love

I have been in the same relationship for 3 years (on Wednesday the 13th) but for the last year I haven't been quite happy as my significant other seems to be very critical of the person I am and the things I do.

I admit that I have put on a few pounds since I graduated High school in 2005 but does that mean that he has to pinch my slight fat rolls and tell me I need to exercise more?
And just because He doesn't like anime doesn't mean that he has to tell me how stupid he thinks is does it.

And I still haven't told him that I am wiccan because I don't want to hear how stupid he thinks it is and make fun of me every time I do a ritual or cast my runes.

I don't know what to do because I want the relationship to be over but at the same time I don't want it to end because I am afraid of what lies after the ending of this relationship. and I don't want to end the relationship but I know that is the cowards way out.

Then this weekend I met someone that made me feel special He looked at me the way my current boyfriend never has and When I told him that I was Wiccan he thought that it was cool, He loves anime, listens to all different kinds of music and he sings along to a lot of them. I have asked my boyfriend for me when he plays guitar but he flat out refuses and then makes fun of me for asking and every time I listen to something other then heavy metal he tells me I have bad taste and need to get a better taste for music because he is the only that is right.

The other looked at me like I mattered and my opinions did too, I am just so tired of feeling like I am not good enough and my boyfriend says that he is sorry when I bring up this issues but then a week later he goes back to the same old routine. and I have tried everything I can think of to make this work but I am at my wits end and running out of tears and lavender oil.

AmarisGaia

Question?

Okay so my mom has always told me that she thought that wicca was evil and that if I ever converted to it she would throw me out. However, the other day we were talking and she said that she believes in Tarot readings and Rune reading. She loves Sylvia Brown and thinks that she is a true divinator. I should her my runes and she was really excited and I told her that I was thinking about getting tarot cards as well and she was all for it. My step-dad has an aunt who does tarot readings, i have never met her and I told my mom I would like to and once again that was okay.
So my question is why is it okay for me to surround myself with Magickal people and items and even practice so of the divinations acts but its not okay for me to be a full wiccan.
I am thinking about telling her but I just don't know how to go about it without getting kicked out. I really can't afford to live on my own. Maybe I will just wait and tell her when I move out. I am acutally looking forward to living on my own and being able to set up my magickal alter and items the way I wish and practice whenever I want.
I am staying with my friend Aeitha for a whole week in January b/c her parents are going out town. so we will get to practice and do some rituals that are long over due! I can't wait.
well guys that is it for now Blessed Be and Merry Meet!

Reading Material.

I just found a new book series that I think most wiccans would like. Its by Laurie Stolarz and the First is called Blue is for Nightmares. Each book follows a young wiccan Named Stacey Brown who has nightmares in which she can see the future, usually they pertain to her having to figure them out to save someone. I accidentally read the last of one in the series but I had to read the ones that came first so I went out and bought the first one.
One reason I am recommending this to Wiccans is because the author doesn't portray wiccans as sabrina the teenage witch stereotypes. The main character does her rituals just like we would and understands the laws. It is also published by Llwellyn which produces the Alamanac.
so happy reading

Narrowing it down

I decided that I want to narrow the topics down on this blog, I have other blogs that discuss my everyday life, but not one that mentions my magickal life. So from now on that is what this one is going to be about.
I have finally started making some headway on my magickal stock cabinet. Its funny I have been a Wiccan for 7 years but I am just now getting to where I can keep my cabinet stocked. Mostly because when I first started I wasn't old enough to have a job, and I couldn't ask my mom for the stuff . She is a die hard christian and has made it perfectly clear that a magickal life would not be tolerated in her house.
I am just happy that even though I must keep my magickal life to myself, because I still live with my parents, I can practice and afford to buy my own supplies! :)
well thats all for tonight
Blessed Be!

Day by day

Exams are coming up at school. I only have to take one...Thank goodness! My birthday is in only 8 days!! HOORAY I will be 21. I am not having the normal turning 21 party though. I am just gonna have dinner with a couple firends, my boyfriend and his family like I have for the past two years.
I am hoping that someone gets me a giftcard to bookland in our mall b/c there are so many books that I want. I can't afford all of them though because I need to buy christmas presents and pay my bills.
Registration is coming up soon. I can only take one class this semester b/c I can't afford anything else and I Financial aid denied me... I think I messed up on the form though, So I am gonna try again once, my mom files my taxes. Chris, my boyfriend, is gonna register for classes this semester too. He wants to go into computer engineering, I am happy he has found something he wants to do, but I am also afraid of what will happen when he finally chooses a university to transfer too, since he can only get an associates at our community college. I guess it will be a great time for me to find a school to get my bachelor's at. Since he will be moving, I won't feel like I am leaving him behind. I might try to go to a university in WV and see if my sister will let me stay with her until I can get an apartment or something on my own. I guess I will just have to see what comes, and take everything one day at a time.