Falling in and out of love

I have been in the same relationship for 3 years (on Wednesday the 13th) but for the last year I haven't been quite happy as my significant other seems to be very critical of the person I am and the things I do.

I admit that I have put on a few pounds since I graduated High school in 2005 but does that mean that he has to pinch my slight fat rolls and tell me I need to exercise more?
And just because He doesn't like anime doesn't mean that he has to tell me how stupid he thinks is does it.

And I still haven't told him that I am wiccan because I don't want to hear how stupid he thinks it is and make fun of me every time I do a ritual or cast my runes.

I don't know what to do because I want the relationship to be over but at the same time I don't want it to end because I am afraid of what lies after the ending of this relationship. and I don't want to end the relationship but I know that is the cowards way out.

Then this weekend I met someone that made me feel special He looked at me the way my current boyfriend never has and When I told him that I was Wiccan he thought that it was cool, He loves anime, listens to all different kinds of music and he sings along to a lot of them. I have asked my boyfriend for me when he plays guitar but he flat out refuses and then makes fun of me for asking and every time I listen to something other then heavy metal he tells me I have bad taste and need to get a better taste for music because he is the only that is right.

The other looked at me like I mattered and my opinions did too, I am just so tired of feeling like I am not good enough and my boyfriend says that he is sorry when I bring up this issues but then a week later he goes back to the same old routine. and I have tried everything I can think of to make this work but I am at my wits end and running out of tears and lavender oil.

AmarisGaia